Warning: Today, I get a little deep....
I am going to through an interesting little journey in my life at the moment. I have mentioned a bit about this in some of my recent facebook posts, and from the response I have received from all of you, I am hearing that I am not alone! So, I want to share a bit about the crazy, contrasting and rather chaotic experiences I am having, and the powerful, aha-moment realisations and learnings I am getting as a result.
The circumstances of my life seem to be in a constant state of flux. When people ask me where I will be or what I will be doing a few months from now, I say 'I don't know!' I am learning instead, to surrender to what is, and allow the flow of life to guide me, rather than forcing what I want in to fruition. My best laid plans are often unravelled as unexpected twists and turns seem to continue to enter my path. I am being forced to live squarely in this moment. To simply be here now.
This is the beautiful thing that uncertainty makes us do - it makes us live presently. Why? Because there is not much else we can do! When the world around us is arranging and rearranging itself, all we can do is sit tight and do our best to hold on.
The other thing that uncertainty does, is move our focus from the external to the internal. Often when our hands are tied and we are powerless to control the outer world, we are forced to just stop, and be. Uncertainty often creates inner turmoil. As a result, we become more aware of what is going on inside of us, and if we are wise, we start implementing practices to calm our anxieties, and cultivate peace instead.
LIFE IS A CLASSROOM
I believe life is our a classroom, and we are here to learn. I believe we are given challenges, as these help us to grow. I believe that everything happens for a reason, and unfolds exactly as it is supposed to, even if at the time we cannot understand why. I believe that there is more to my life and this universe than the physical and material things that we can touch, see and feel.
These beliefs give me peace. They give my life meaning and purpose. They help me detach from the part of me that wants to curl up in a ball, play the victim card and cry 'why is this happening to me?' Instead, they empower me to see the true message behind everything, and encourage me to remember that in every moment I have the ability to choose how I am going to respond.
Right now, I am being challenged. And rather than looking at these challenges as annoying inconveniences, I am instead choosing to see them as beautiful little learning opportunities and wondrous little wake up calls, that I did not even realise I needed.
ABRUPT ENDINGS + NEW BEGINNINGS
I am in the process of learning which areas of my life need to end - and therefore be let go of. And which areas of my life are ready to grow - and require new beginnings.
Some areas of my life are crumbling at the moment. It seems that no matter how hard I try, I cannot keep them together. I am working so hard to make progress and literally stop everything falling to pieces. It is the strangest thing, because no degree of effort, control, organisation or preventative measures can stop it. I have been fighting this for months. Working to pick up the pieces. Trying so hard to get results. And nothing
On the other hand, it seems that there are other areas of my life that are blossoming out of my control. In these areas there is effortlessness, flow, ease and instant manifestation. In these moments my body tingles with high energy vibrations. I experience synchronicity and magic and miracles. In these areas, no mater how many challenges I experience it seems that these areas still seem to flourish. Literally with very little effort on my behalf. It is as if, all I need to do is set the intention, let go, and it all just happens.
I have been swinging between this darkness and light like a yo yo on a string. In the span of a day I move between the peaks and troughs countless times. My analytical mind has been going haywire trying to piece this puzzle together and make sense of it all. And this is the problem, because...
When it comes to matters of the heart, your analytical mind is useless.
I am being taught that it is time to follow my inner guidance with strong faith, a deep trust, and lots of courage. And in order to do this, I must let go of any rational or logical reasoning that my analytical mind tries to use to talk me out of it.
JUMP, AND THEN YOU GET YOUR WINGS
Read this post by Sarah Wilson, titled jump, and *then* you get your wings. It totally spoke to me. It was the message I needed to hear.
HOW TO THRIVE IN TIMES OF CHAOS
+ Embrace Uncertainty: Don't fight it. Don't resist it. Simply allow it. Let the Universe guide and support you. Trust that everything is unfolding as it is meant to, and you will always be taken care of. Everything you need will be provided.
+ Follow Your Heart: The heart energy is often irrational, illogical and free spirited. It encourages us to take risks and follow your feelings rather than your rational mind. When we are afraid, we often retreat to the security based thinking of the mind. Instead, stay connected to your heart and allow it to guide you
+ Let Go: Let go of how you want it to happen. Let go of your attachments. Let go of forcing, controlling and manipulating. Relax a little. Let go of outcomes and results. If you are struggling with this, try taking a deep breath in, and as you breathe out say the words 'let it go' several times. Repeat this process over and over until you find your body relax and your mind start to cam.
+ Follow Inner Guidance: I believe that the purpose of instability in the external world, is to encourage us to instead find our security and stability inside of us. We all look to the external world to meet our needs, but when the external world is in chaos, we must turn our search somewhere else. Start to become familiar with that soft inner voice inside of you that whispers to you. It will always tell you what you need to hear.
+ Forget About The How: It is very likely that you have no idea how everything is going to sort itself out. And that it totally ok! Do not waste your time trying to come up with plans about how it is all going to come together. Simply focus on the outcome you want. Hold it in your heart. Trust that it will be taken care of. And then as the dust around you settles, keep hold of that vision and remain open and willing to the guidance that will show you how to achieve it.
So, over to you! I would love to hear your comments...
+ Can any of you relate to what I am describing here?
+ What lessons are you learning from this experience?